Just one thing

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I wish that I could have one thing that I was interested in and do it.  To just enjoy one thing and get really, really super good at it.  But no–I can’t.  I love to knit, but before knitting it was crochet, quilting, scrapbooking, cooking, gardening, running, having pets–dogs, cats, fish, birds and any stray anything that needs food and water, pottery and jewelry making. 

When my daughter was asked at school what she wanted to be she said “an artist, teacher, Mom, animal shelter worker, hair cutter (she did have too much emphasis on the cutting part), and food network/cooker.  I thought to myself she will have the same trouble in life in deciding what to do.  At least she can come and visit my basement and “shop” for her latest passion.

In getting ready for this move I have been thinking about what I should focus on for this season of my life.  I’m only thinking and not coming up with ideas of what I could eliminate or thin out.  It is like getting rid of all my baby stuff–a mourning process needs to begin.  I’m not quite there yet. 

One thing is for sure–breakfast, lunch, dinner, laundry, sweeping the floor, and keeping everyone going in forward motion–will fill my day. 

Thank you God for giving me the grace to do what I do over and over and remain a joyful mom–mostly.

On my own–again

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Sunday is a hard day.  Eric leaves on Sunday and I know that I can do anything and everything by myself it is just so much more enjoyable with Eric.  I will say that Eric and I approach every situation, problem, issue, life in general extremely differently from each other yet–it works for us.  We are almost always in agreement on everything from style of houses to choice of bathroom rugs–I’m not sure how this happens.  It must be divine intervention.

I know that God has a plan for our lives and especially at this moment in time,  I know deep down that I will grow from this experience.  My goal each day is to joyfully serve the Lord–some days I do a better job than others.   Our lives are the most stressful that they have ever been and to be joyful when I’m trying to get everyone out the door in the morning from school, listening to the bickering, when I run out of milk because I “thought” I had another one, when I step in something gross, when I’m just tired and want to just sit for a few minutes . . .

God, thank you for my husband.  I know that this is a time of hardship/growth for him as well as for me.  May the Holy Spirit be with him as he travels.  Help us to be the song in each others heart and not be afraid to sing.

Happy New Year!

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I just read two other blogs that were very inspiring.  I should not read other blogs before trying to write mine. 

I think that for this New Year I will attempt to not compare myself with others.  I’m not sure when I started to measure myself by others rather than myself. 

This year I want to be happy with who I am becoming and knowing that I do my best each day. 

We are moving to IL soon and the process of weeding through a life’s worth of “things” has been hard.  I was told that if I don’t need it now–get rid of it.  If I wouldn’t buy it today to serve a purpose in my house–get rid of it.  It was a great feeling to get rid of things–the stuff that has kept me from moving on. 

One of the things that I shed were all the maternity related items–clothes, bouncy seats, bassinets, baby clothes and it felt good at the time but now that longing is coming back.  I know that I have my hands very full with my 4 kids and it would be a blessing to have another but my body just isn’t working in that way anymore.  I need to move forward and enjoy what I do have not what I don’t.  My mind knows that but my heart doesn’t.

Thank you God for my family that I love more than anything.  God, please help me trust in you–that these kids and this husband were chosen by you for me.  Calm my heart in knowing that this is where I am supposed to be.