14/31 Days of Honest: the break

Today is Sunday–I take Sunday’s off!  I still cook and do the normal home making tasks–and sometimes I fold laundry and watch TV–I really enjoy Super Soul Sunday on Oprah–but rarely get to watch it . . . Today I could but raking the leaves is a more pressing issue–I also find that raking leaves will give me the forced quiet time I need to focus my thoughts on the basement project—

Last night I worked hard to make a huge pile of tubs where all of my sewing/quilting projects live.  My plan is to sort through in a very intentional way and ask,

1. will I ever make this
2. do I need to make it
3. can I use it after I make it?
4. will working on this project give me JOY or will I just be crossing a “job” off the list?

I realized last night that not all of the things in the basement do I enjoy doing anymore–what once defined me–say, my catering business . . . I can take everything that I learned when I had the business and apply it to my life now–but I don’t need a 40 cup coffee maker or 15 Quiche pans (I make a very excellent Quiche–my biggest seller with soup–my soups are phenomenal too).  I loved that business–nurturing, loving, serving, being creative with local ingredients AND getting paid to do it.

I need to “let go” of that part of me that once was–to make room for who I am becoming.

. . . but in order to figure that out I need to think it through–I need to be comfortable with the idea of what I am not and what I am becoming . . . I need to say good-bye and move on.

I’ll be raking leaves on this strange, warm, windy, wet morning.  Jesus went to a quiet place to pray and think things through–my front yard is my quiet place this morning.

Be Blessed.